I want Edward Cullen, not Robbert Pattinson

I have never been interested to watch Twilight when it first came out even though every GIRL/MOTHER/GRANDMA/MEDIA was so crazy about it.

Why?

1. Robbert Pattinson is so fugly/messy/gross/pale/zombie looking lo. Look at his face!

2. I'm more into hot macho australian man,spanish accent guy and nerdy looking dude.eg: Hugh Jackman,Leonardio Dicaprio and Justin Long.

3. Robbert Pattinson spoilt my interest.

So after months...

I've finally watch it on Sunday night when it was air on Star Movies.

I have to say. I like the story/movie,really,it was romantic and to-die/melt-for :) yes I was melting. BUT! Not melting looking at Robbert Pattinson. I still don't like fugly vampires like him. (was complaining to sister how ugly he is throughout the movie haha)

Have to say,the movie got me wanting a guy to actually would say this to me:'Bella (Jean) ,I will protect you no matter what.' *melt like an ice at temperature 40 degree celcius ;)*

Although I don't believe in fairy tales' prince charming but I have a second thought after watching Twilight.

But still,is reality.*knock head* What I want my boyfriend to protect me from anyway? Vampires (hot sexy guys,not Robbert Pattinson) running around wishing to suck my delicious and sweet human blood?haha

When will you be back?

You are going back Saturday morning, tomorrow is the only time left to spend with you until I don't know when.

I miss you already! :'(

Big girl don't cry,yes?no?

What if I'm a big girl that cries?

4months holiday starts today

To do list:

1. Finals - DONE
2. Enrollment for 2nd year subjects - DONE
3. Spending as much time as I can with baby before he balik - Not done
4. Shopping - Not done
5. Movies with sister - Not done

Look after you - The Fray

Woke up an hour ago and am feeling moody since.why?somethings got me thinking before I slept yesterday.

1. Bubu is going back soooon (next week) and yes,I'm starting to miss him so much already
2. He is going to Indon in beginning of December.:(
3. Why does all the men that I'm involved revolved around the alphabet 'J'?
4. 'What if we grew apart b?'.'dont worry,we wont unless you got a crush on another guy again baby'. - what if it really happens?
5. I have Econs paper this coming Monday and am not touching it yet.how now?


I wanna go somewhere FAR from the city!

we are one

One more paper to go and I'm done with first year! and hello 3 and 1/2 months of holiday! :)

Current addiction :

Mama do acoustic version - Pixie Lott

Two is better than one - Boys like Girls

Baby,I love you ;)

This will make you cry,cause I cried when I type this

What you do when you have a crush on another person but in a very stable relationship with your boyfriend? And your boyfriend treat you so well?

Answer : Be honest.

Yes, I'm gonna say it all out here, I don't care a shit what are you you and you gonna fucking say about me because I did not fucking lie or cheat on my boyfriend. I have the guts to say it all out and confess to my boyfriend,and why can't you do it too?

I hated any one that cheated behind their backs since long ago, because well, I had a pretty 'nice' experiences of being dumped by few assholes because of them cheating. It is always my phobia to actually get closer to be with a guy.

I was so afraid until I met Jeffry Yu. but yes, THE SAME THING happened all over again (sorry baby,I have to say it).

BUT, this time (happened last year in the beginning of us) , I took the risk to forgive him and gave him a second chance. Guess what? We are doing so great and continuing building our relationship day by day despite of all the mishaps we have to go through.

So yes, my point here is that, HOW CAN PEOPLE CHEAT BEHIND ANOTHER BACK AND NOT FEEL A SHIT OF PAIN THEMSELVES?

I did not cheat but only have a slight crush and I cried every time I see Jeff's face, hear his voice, even when I'm texting with him. HOW CAN PEOPLE FUCKING CHEAT WITHOUT FEELING PAIN INSIDE?


Jeffry Yu, baby, I'm so sorry you have to go through this, I didn't mean to hurt you but I'm sorry. I love you. I can't promise to love you forever, but I will always love you baby. You are the one that I would spend the rest of my life with because I know, deep in my heart, I cannot live without you.
You are always there to catch me whenever I fall. You have always love me and treat me like an angel.
Even though sometimes both of us may get so stubborn and not give in, but I'm always not afraid that you gonna leave me because I know you love me so much.

All I can say now is that I'm sorry and I love you.

never say never

I'm glad that I have what I'm having in my life right now,a lovely boyfriend that cares for me so much,not trying to complain anything about it.

What I'm trying to say is that sometimes I realized that I may start a wrong foot with someone else in the past. I'm not saying that I regret what had happened, no point looking back and feel sorry about it but,we can actually fix it here in the present or in the future. Some things left undone and the other party know it too and both have these guts to like actually start a conversation or rebuild the whole situation.

Unfortunately, due to shyness or afraid to be ignore, things remain unsolvable and awkward.

We can't fix everything in life,but if there is an opportunity, take a chance and make a change, you never know what will happen next.

Is a risk I would take, will you?

My boy

A text message convo between jeffry yu and I 5mins ago.

Jean: Baby,I'm slacking again :( see marketing also scare

Baby: Aiyo, why scared? You market yourself to me already.so pro!

Jean: *laughed and roll on the floor*

Baby: That is 'marketing' also ma.non monetary marketing haha

I LOVE MY BOY !

over my head

Its been awhile since I post something in my blog.was pretty caught up with university and spending as much time with baby as possible since it is already near November :( or maybe I just lost the mojo to actually sit and blog.

anyway,10 things running all over my head right now:

1. RDA assignment!please don't be an asshole and bringing so much shit to me right now,my finals is next week
2. Finals next week
3. Baby going back on mid November, going Indon on the 10th of December :(
4. I need to study
5. Not studying at all even though so afraid of failing and even get dreams of all the marketing theory every night :/
6. I want to hug my bubu so badly right now :(
10. Stupid RDA! Arghh!